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Everyone Knows Remix.

2008-05-13T17:20:00.005-04:00

For those ya'll who weren't fortunate to make it to the Glow In The Dark Tour (Neither was I though) or listen to Hot 97 around 5pm, when they launched the Everyone Knows Remix -- N.E.R.D ft. CRS & Pusha T.. . I was on my grind & was able to find the link to download the song & was even nice enough to put you guys on. =D Just click here. Yea, yea.. thank me later.

sophomore year at a glance.

2008-05-12T23:01:00.007-04:00

i laughed and i cried. i met many frauds & insulted many more. i still have a flashback from the last block party. i partied on mondays, thursdays became the new friday & by saturday i was bored out of my mind. i became a 'drunk&hawt' girl that was invited to all the cool parties lol. i 'stopped' drinking only to bang into poles & break sks. i constantly told people 'i dont eat pork-- i don't do the white man's swine' while constantly helping myself to seconds of bacon, BBQ ribs & anything pork related. i learned patron isnt the answer to anything -- its just best to stick w. remy, no one gets hurt that way. i 'let my nuts' go all spring weekend only not to record the track at the end of the year. i gave up & i gave in only to have my 'G' card taken away in the SU. i threatened bitches lives & received hideous gifts from my boss that ended up being demolished on tape. i cherished late night drives to mcdonalds & my one-time visit to walmart. i quickly learned how to roll up in the car while being in dark deserted places & been pulled out of parties because the 'swat' had come. i realized i drop the 'n' bomb like crazy with intoxicated & even have a 'girls just want to have fun drunk ' walk. i learned secrets 'do' keep friends despite what everyone thinks. i partied hard & worked slightly only to come out w. straight A's. i met tons of interesting people but most importantly i gained six lifelong sisters that i will continue to love through all the ups & downs & petty fights about getting into parties on different campuses. great year uconn. thanks for it all. until we meet again in august.. .

another again.

2008-03-02T02:04:00.003-05:00

diamonds are a girl's best friend !!

well .. at least not for this girl ; all she needs in her life is are christian louboutins & nike blazers/dunks & she'll be happy; content w. all that life has to offer her .. because those material things are indeed her best friends. =]

.. i dunno what made me start this blog w. that phrase or even put that picture up [i just felt as if it looked like i was reading this blog -- you know after i typed it because thats how i look when i read -- beautiful isnt it? almost smiling w. my eyes a little, no?] ; but needless to say this weekend i finally found a "passion" to do something. now dont get me wrong .. i have ideas every now & then .. & im currently working on another big project [that will also be revealed as time progresses] BUT, some i say i want to pursue -- others it's just a "i was throwin` it out there" type thing. but after spending yet another nite alone i had an epiphany. i texted tazz this marvelous idea & BAMM -- we are gonna work to make this "far-fetched, sorry as a friend its not gonna work" idea come to life. one word: LA. yep, that was the bum ass hint imma give you guys until i further this plan & plan out ways to make it happen. but for once in my life i finally feel like i know what i want to do w. my life -- although my photography/comm. design degree might not be what i actually need to pursue it, nonetheless its still something to have under my belt & besides .. i love my art classes.

the only real reason im writing this blog is because honestly im lonely. 2:15am on a saturday nite (sunday morning -- depending on how you wanna look at it) & im absolutely positively .. lonely. boyfriend is out partying. friends are out partying. roommate is out getting read for tomorrow's photoshoot -- & im just sitting here bullshitting on this blog when i should studying for my architecture midterm. nonetheless, i feel as if typing on this someone out there hears me & i feel a little better. even if they read this .. 2 weeks later or something.

tomorrow .. finally something i get to enjoy a little bit: a photoshoot. no, im not the photographer this time. =/ one of my friends will be shooting [best believe my camera will be fully assembled in my bag .. you know just in case shit happens] but i am helping style, which is my second favorite thing to do. the photoshoot is strictly a hair shoot w. about seven girls, including my lovely roommate, which is supposed to last from 9am to 2pm in a town 20 minutes away from me. which means imma have to get up earlyy -- like as if i was going to work or something of that nature. spring break is the following week & i have a booked set w. an spoken artist named messiah for plateau magazine [a magazine solely dedicated to up & coming artist] -- i figure i contribute & shoot the artist they are featuring while they up & coming .. & who knows where that will take me.

.. . absolutely pointless. that's all that is now on my mind about this post -- has absolutely no sentimental message, or moral/lesson that you can learn from it ; in fact, you probably just wasted 5 minutes of your life reading the fcukery that's going through this brain of mine. nonetheless, my loneliness is gone & i feel complete -- so i no longer need to sit here & "blog" my heart away.. at least not until tomorrow.

past the intro. time for da show!

2008-02-25T17:56:00.004-05:00

after taking madddd weeks to redesign this thing i was then faced w. this task of "what the hell am i gonna write that will interest you people" -- if there are even any people out there. i figured i could ramble about my life & what i bought from the mall today or what im going to order online tomorrow ; but then i stopped & figured, i can dont give a fcuk -- i know you wouldnt either. so i decided not to hop on the bandwagon & make this a whatever i feel like writing down blog. greatttt .. i am no longer binding myself to one category or topic. there are too many dumb fashion blogs out there that don't interest me.. at all ; mainly because im not the girly girly type that wears all these dresses & stilettos [dont get me wrong i got pumps in my closet & will bust them out in a second w. a meannn walk...] & as far as celeb news, my girl simone keeps me updated on that at soulfreshmagazine.blogspot.com. [check her out!] & just because this blog is geared to my ladies, doesn't mean imma forget about my fellas -- there seems to be more interesting men-realated things out there on some of these blogs than female ; but i will try to provide the best of both worlds as much as i can. & everyone hates repetitive blogs .. i'll try to stay away from that style of blogging where we're copying & pasting things from other blogs just because i dont think you read it.. cuz i really dont read blogs, but im sure you guys do. anyway, stay tuned. let the fcukery begin!

exposing el fcukery.

2008-02-02T20:25:00.000-05:00

ugh. i hate introductions ; especially on the first day of class when your professor insist that the class go around the room giving a brief introduction about yourself. half the time im texting or talking on AIM ; not giving a damn about my fellow classmates & i bet the feeling is 100% mutual. so usually when its my turn to give my introduction, it goes:

"hi im _______ , from new york. im a sophomore w. junior credits. i dont know what i want to do w. my life & yea that's it -- anything else?"

but this is only a blog ; & i doubt that anyone is really interested in reading about me or my interest .. because i personally dont think im even that interesting. probably more fun to be around than actually read about ; but nonetheless, i shall give what the public wanted .. so here's a brief introduction of my alter ego: el. sarcastic .. very. i can't whisper to save my life as told by friends ; but most of what i say either loud or in a loud whisper i want to be heard. im not blunt ; i dont speak my mind .. not until its too late -- then it just comes out as like tsunami of mixed emotions. i have anger issues ; bad ones. i enjoy being angry because thats what most of my life has been composed of: anger, hurt & all those sucky adjectives that would make sense to why i like being mad. aside from the anger issues -- im crude & word on the streets is i can come off as a 'snobby lil' rich girl who always gets what she wants.' go figure. but we wont object to those negative claims just yet -- we'll save that for another blog or so. reading up to this point you've probably thing "wow, el's a jerk." but i mean aside from the sardonic crude nature of my being .. i am nice, seriously. i like to make people laugh & get so bored that i tend to make friends w. random people just by starting simple conversations. im random ; self-diagnosed ADHD. a shopaholic & a self-proclaimed sneakerhead. photography, graphic arts, music, fashion .. yea yea, all that good stuff is what holds my interest for more than an hr. at times. when people ask me, "what do you want to be when you 'grow up'?" or "where do you see yourself in 5 yrs?" ; i simply shrug. in 5 years i'll be 25 & hawt. a family, madd dogs & w. the love of my life .. loso, filthy rich. the problem w. me is well, i never thought about what i wanted to do w. my life -- all i knew was i was gonna be rich. period. & i know its gonna happen .. so a shrug is sufficient enough to a nobody that will probably forget me 5 years from now. im a rebel by heart ; & i don't listen .. even when i should. i could go on listing traits, characteristics, accomplishments, aspects of my wonderful life -- but who gives a fcuk? i dont. & i guarantee you -- you dont either. so fcuk it. without further adieu .. i bring to you el fcukery.